Who Else Could You Have Been?- Inner Temple - jessicacrossasmr.com

Have you ever wondered who else you could have been if you had made different choices in your life?  My parents had two different names picked out for me which my Grandparents shot down.  One was Asia and the other one was Galandrial. Yes, they were Hippies.  I think I could have rocked either name but I think it would have changed me.  Sometimes I try to picture myself with either of these names and I just can't imagine being exactly the same.   Try imagining your life with a very unusual name or the name of a character from a book or movie.

If something as simple as a name could make a difference in how you shaped your life, imagine how many of the major decisions you have made altered who you became.  I think there are always trade offs in our lives and that one path is not good while another one is bad.  We learn from mistakes and often get farther ahead because of what we learned.  

In meditation I like to meet with other versions of who I could have become.  What if I had pursued a singing and acting career as I thought I wanted to in my youth?  What if my professor had submitted my recommendation on time and I had been accepted to a Masters program in Anthropology?  What if my husband and I had ended our relationship when he moved to another state in high school?  Life would have been very different, maybe better in some way and worse in others?  What could you learn from these other possibilities of you?  

Read through the following meditation once and then close your eyes and remember what you can.  Don't worry if you take a different path in your meditation.  That is where you needed to go even if it doesn't seem that way at first.  Take what you are given and don't negate what you receive even if it feels you are controlling the meditation or seeing locations from movies, television shows or books.  Focus on what those locations or archetypes mean to you.

Inner Temple Meditation

Take a deep breath and walk with me down the path towards your inner temple.  Where is this temple located?  What does it look like? Take another deep breath as you open the door to your temple.  As you enter the foyer one of your guides is waiting there for you.  They have come to assist you on this next journey.  Greet them and thank them for their help.  Your guide leads you to a new door that you have not yet entered.  What does this door look like and how do you feel about entering?  Open the door and enter a room like no other you have visited.  This room is empty except for a huge mirror on one wall.  What do the walls and floor look like in this room? 

Your guide says that they have come to take you on a journey.  This is the room that leads to all other places.  Allow your guide to lead you into the mirror.  On the other side is a long dark tunnel.  You are not afraid but curious about where you will go.  Walk down the long tunnel and exit into the light. 

You are in a new place you have not been before.  There is park with a clearing in the center.  In the middle of the clearing is a fountain and a circular bench.  Approach the fountain and you notice there is someone sitting on the other side of the bench.  As you walk closer you notice that this person is you, but older than you are now.  Sit down and visit with this older version of you.  This version may be an older version of your current lifeline or may have lived in very different circumstances than you ever did.  Ask them to tell you about themselves.  They may give you a detailed story or just the current lesson they are there to impart.  In what ways to they look different than you?  You may be struggling with an aspect of life they have figured out.  What do they have to tell you?  Are they happy with their life?  Do they have any suggestions for you in your current life?  

You may ask them any question (age, relationships, children, career).  They may not give you a clear answer or the answer you are looking for, but know that they may be a different version of you, not a glimpse of the future.  They are there to give you wisdom not predictions.  Ask if they have a gift for you? Take any gifts offered and thank them.  You may ask them to become one of your guides and return with you to your temple.  

Rejoin the guide that brought you who is on the other side of the bench.  You may ask them any questions about the interaction.  You may ask why they brought you here if it is unclear. 

When you are ready you can approach the tunnel again and begin the long walk back to your temple.  When you walk through the mirror again you have one last chance to ask any questions of your guide.  Thank them and know that you can ask any guide at any time to accompany you down this tunnel to the place you need to visit at that time.  When you are ready you can open the door and exit this room.  

If your other self has returned with you, allow your guide to show them to the room with the archway and meet the other guides.  Thank them as they leave the foyer.  

Walk to the altar in your foyer.  You should have some item there as a reminder of the creation of all the current rooms in your temple.  This is the foundation.  Your temple may change over time as you add new rooms or as rooms are no longer useful to you.  You may expand the areas around your temple.  Your temple will always exist here in some form and will always grow and change to be exactly what you need.

Take one last look around.  Send gratitude out to the energies around you for this place and the peace and growth it has and will bring you.  Take your time and when you feel ready exit the front door.  Walk down the path and begin to hear the sounds around your physical body.  Drift off to sleep to learn more in your dreams or wiggle your fingers and toes and when you feel ready, open your eyes.  

Return to your body by drinking or eating, or self massage.  Somehow connect with your body and the physical world if you have decided to wake up.  Write down what you have learned from this meditation.  I hope you enjoyed meeting with yourself and learned something powerful.

Thank you so much for reading my blog.  If you want to find more meditations check out my website http://www.jessicacrossasmr.com.  I hope these help you to relax and focus.  

Take care,

Jessica Cross
www.jessicacrossasmr.com